Billie Lourd Says Carrie Fisher Died 'Too Damn Young' in Emotional Birthday Tribute: Today 'I Wanted My Mom'

Mar. 15, 2025

Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd in an undated photo on Billie Lourd’s Instagram.Photo:Billie Lourd/Instagram

Billie Lourd/Instagram

Billie Lourd"just felt sad" when she woke up on her late motherCarrie Fisher’s birthday.

“My mom would’ve been 68 today. Dead person birthdays are weird to say the least. On my mom’s birthday every year, I try to celebrate her as much as possible, but today I really wanted to celebrate her with her,” Lourd wrote in a caption to her post. “Some years my grief makes me feel the warmth of her love, some years it makes me angry, some years I feel numb but today when I woke up I just felt sad. I didn’t want to celebrate, I just wanted my mom.”

Lourd added that her “sadness bodysnatched me” and that she googled “average death age woman” and found that American women on average live 80.2 years, as per theCDC.

“My mom died when she was 60. 60 is too damn young to die,” Lourd wrote in her emotional post.

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“I did everything in my power to help my mom get sober but sadly my mom couldn’t ever escape her addiction,” she wrote in her caption. “But while she was alive she always shared the ups and downs of that struggle with others in hopes it would help them escape their own addiction. As an addict, being open about the struggle is the only way through.”

Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd on Dec. 14, 2015.Todd Williamson/Getty

source: people.com