The actress, 21,wrapped filming on the Netflix series that skyrocketed her to fame nearly 10 years ago in December, and she said the day was “so emotional” for her during a March 11 interview on theTodayshow.
“I kind of was like, ‘Oh, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine.’ And then I think it was a defense mechanism, I think it was my coping,” she toldSavannah Guthrie. “And then I realized I was not fine. I cried a lot.”
Brown recalled walking on set for her last day and feeling hyperaware of all the “lasts” she was experiencing.
“[I] was like, ‘Oh my gosh, this is my last day. This is the last coffee I’m going to drink, the last mark I’m going to stand on,'” she said. “It all kind of came head-on, really fast.”
Brown marked the end of the chapter in an Instagramposton Dec. 20, where she shared a series of photos from her years on the show and a video ofthe emotional speech she made on her last day on set, where she compared the day to graduation.
“Isn’t graduation supposed to bring relief? Like you’re glad to leave behind the teachers and classmates. Not me. I am nowhere near ready to leave you guys," she said in the clip. “I love each and every one of you and I will forever carry the memories and bonds we created together as a family. I love you, thank you.”
In February, Brown spoke to reporters at the L.A. premiere of her Netflix movieThe Electric Stateabout the long wait forStranger Things' fifth and final season, and assured fans: “It is worth it, I promise.”
“Be patient,” she said. “Letthe Dufferscreate what they’ve been doing for the last 10 years so beautifully.”
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“I remember so many things from that first season so vividly as if it was yesterday. We were so young, and it was such a weird, wild experience that it kind of blended,” he said. “At this point, I’ve almost been doingStranger Thingslonger than I haven’t… So I’ll always be really grateful, and coming to terms with letting that go is increasingly difficult, for sure, in a work sense and in a life sense.”
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Stranger Thingsseasons 1-4 can be streamed on Netflix.
source: people.com